Free Urges

Sometimes there are urges... urges to set yourself free.
Be part of nature
leave everything behind to be
free.
Oh how epic would that be,
running away from everything
problems and love.
Sometimes reality hits so hard
you have urges
that you know will never be taken.
But oh how nice would it be to free.

I don't care.

Little by little

I've been learning not to care. 

Not to care what people think

about me. 

But this doesn't give me the liberty 

to act like a complete fool.

Not to care what people say 

about me. 

But this doesn't give me the liberty

to act "immorally". 

I don't care

if this doesn't make any sense to you. 

All I fucking care is what I understand. 

What I accept. 

I will be who I am. 

I don't care

for I won't sweat the small stuff. 

Meaning you. 

What do you See, Learn, and Accept.

What do you see, learn, and accept?

We see many things on a daily basis.

We learn many things throughout life.

But, what do we accept?

Seeing and learning may be totally different 

to accepting. 

We see crucial things but

we don't necessarily accept it. 

Why?

Many reasons-why-a person may withhold.

As well with learning.

We might learn that a precious thing in our life is

a simple hoax. 

Yet, we won't accept it.

So tell me,

What do you see, learn, and accept.

The Death of Myself

All I've ever dreamt is but a lie to fulfill the hollowness of the truth.
I can't deal to acknowledge what I've let myself become into.
I imagine my future and everything else as if my choice of life truly holds that.
I can't help but laugh at the stupidity I've done or thought.
Keep moving forward is what I tell myself on a daily basis but is that sufficient?
I'm trapped inside myself.
I cry, yell, even laugh out for help but once its offered, I can't quite seem to take it.
It's not about pride but self confusion.
Almost every end of a day I wish I can live in my lying dreams of hope and life.
Not suicide. Just to live in those beautiful lies than the ugly truth.

Promise

Screw all of this expect the things that haven't screwed me over. No time energy for this bull. Let's just focus on me, because I'm a lot more valuable than you useless screw. I promise to screw all of that and just focus on my Aerospace Engineer dream. ✈🚀🚁💚🌠 

Tired.

I'm tired.

Tired of a constant reminder

of what to do

what is expected of me to do.

I'm tired,

of wishing to see you in pain

instead of making you feel pain.

I'm tired,

of the loneliness feeling

yet, I prefer being alone.

I'm tired

of me understanding

and you not understanding me.

I'm tired

of trusting you with myself

and feeling you don't care

but care more about anybody else.

I'm tired

of the invitation

of feeling unwelcome.

I'm tired

of people not understanding.

I'm tired

of the ignorant conclusions.

I'm just simply tired of all.

I hear the footsteps coming,

the voices getting louder.

As loud as I play my music,

the silence wins over.